So, um. The reason I called you here, umm... This is probably goign to be a bit of a serious talk, but with the "Monsters" possessing people... It's something that I have talk about.
Yeah. You see, people in my world have something called "star energy" inside their body. Normally it isn't a problem, but for children who haven't learned to control it, it can be dangerous, especially if they have a lot of it.
Just to be safe, kids are given a special kind of seal to keep their powers under control during their first year of school, but I was an orphan, so I never got that seal. So one day... The star energy inside of my body went out of control, and my body kind of... exploded a little? I think that's the best way to describe it.
At that time, a boy a year older than me rushed over, telling me not to die, and doing whatever he could to stop the bleeding. And at that time... My star energy stopped going out of control. And if someone wanted me to live that much... I wanted to make sure to live, no matter what.
Well, the injuries were too severe for me to survive, so I still ended up dying a few days later.
Of course, that's not exactly where things ended, or I wouldn't be here like this.
[...Well, he isn't wrong that it's a really bad oversight. Her world... Isn't that great at helping out the disadvantaged.]
Well, there's a certain ritual that the Gracia church-- Oh, uh, have I talked about the church before?
So, um. In the world of Aterra, we worship the Star God, but there are six main branches of the church, one for each of the six elements of the world. Among the elements though, two in particular stand out: Ether, and Dusk. Ether is... You can think of it as the element of the Star God itself. Ether guides the elements and brings them together. On the other hand, Dusk is... It has a lot of powers, but none of them are exactly good. Dusk is desire. It lets people push past their limits and ignore pain, but it twists people, makes them more violent, and if people use it wrong, they can force people to do what they want. The Gracia Church is the church in charge of the Dusk element, and most of their duty is discovering various ways Dusk can be used... And making sure that if those ways would be too dangerous if they fall into wrong hands, that they never leave the Gracia Church.
One of the rituals the Gracia Church had was what they call the "Stillblood Ritual". It allows someone to come back to life after death, but there are certain requirements for it. First, it only works on children who had a high amount of star energy in life. Second, someone has to want to come back to life. Third, they have to regularly receive large amounts of star energy from an outside source, or they'll die again.
After all, it's not like the body actually comes back to life. It's actually more like we're possessing our own dead bodies. While we're doing that, we're actually using our star energy to maintain the body. While we can grow, it's more like we're using out magic to imitate life than actually being alive. Because of that, we don't need to eat or drink or anything, and we're almost unkillable as long as we have star energy. We could regenerate from almost any wound as long as we had star energy, and even if someone were to shoot me in the head, it wouldn't actually do much more than hurt a lot. But it also means our senses tend to get messed up: Generally, a Stillblood loses one sense, and has another sense enhanced and mixed with their ability to sense star energy. For me, I lost my sense of taste, but my sense of smell was enhanced, and I could smell the elements.
Of course, I didn't get revived for free. Only the Gracia church could perform the ritual to keep giving us star energy, and because of that, when we agreed to become Stillbloods, we also agreed to be the church's enforcers, making sure that Heretics that would abuse the Dusk element are... taken care of.
Yeah, it is. I mean, what I told you before isn't a lie, but... becoming in Inquisitor is pretty harsh and involves a lot of pain, and the Heretics I was sent after weren't exactly... good people.
Still, it doesn't change the fact that before I wound up getting this new body, I wasn't exactly all that different from the Monsters here.
[What... does she mean exactly... How does she word this...]
I may not have eaten people, but I've killed people as part of my job. Sometimes they would beg for their lives and say that they haven't done anything, and I would kill them anyways. And even if it's true that I didn't have a choice...
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you don't mind getting glitter everywhere?
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i'll head over now
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where's the glitter?
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[She sets the bowl down on a desk as she says so.]
I kind of just got the idea while talking, so I just got some from the staff as quickly as I could, but this should help a bit, at least.
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pausing
and then wiping off a bit on what's probably a cheek.
The hand then goes on to very obviously type away on some kind of tablet.]
done!
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It might be a bit of a mess later, but for now, we can see each other.
[And just to prove that, she goes to hold his hand once he's finished typing. For uh. 15 seconds or so. Sorry Yoshi, she still has limits.]
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that's a lot of practice for today!
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[She sits down on her bed shortly afterwards.]
So, um. The reason I called you here, umm... This is probably goign to be a bit of a serious talk, but with the "Monsters" possessing people... It's something that I have talk about.
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do you want me to sit with you while you talk or should i just stand?
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alright lay it on me!
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You were there when I mentioned that someone saved my life when I was a kid, right? Well, that... wasn't exactly true. I died a few days later.
[She thinks a few people might have already figured that part out, but... who knows? Still, it has to be said.]
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[Yeah he didn't get the memo there.]
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Just to be safe, kids are given a special kind of seal to keep their powers under control during their first year of school, but I was an orphan, so I never got that seal. So one day... The star energy inside of my body went out of control, and my body kind of... exploded a little? I think that's the best way to describe it.
At that time, a boy a year older than me rushed over, telling me not to die, and doing whatever he could to stop the bleeding. And at that time... My star energy stopped going out of control. And if someone wanted me to live that much... I wanted to make sure to live, no matter what.
Well, the injuries were too severe for me to survive, so I still ended up dying a few days later.
Of course, that's not exactly where things ended, or I wouldn't be here like this.
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how did you come back?
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Well, there's a certain ritual that the Gracia church-- Oh, uh, have I talked about the church before?
So, um. In the world of Aterra, we worship the Star God, but there are six main branches of the church, one for each of the six elements of the world. Among the elements though, two in particular stand out: Ether, and Dusk. Ether is... You can think of it as the element of the Star God itself. Ether guides the elements and brings them together. On the other hand, Dusk is... It has a lot of powers, but none of them are exactly good. Dusk is desire. It lets people push past their limits and ignore pain, but it twists people, makes them more violent, and if people use it wrong, they can force people to do what they want. The Gracia Church is the church in charge of the Dusk element, and most of their duty is discovering various ways Dusk can be used... And making sure that if those ways would be too dangerous if they fall into wrong hands, that they never leave the Gracia Church.
One of the rituals the Gracia Church had was what they call the "Stillblood Ritual". It allows someone to come back to life after death, but there are certain requirements for it. First, it only works on children who had a high amount of star energy in life. Second, someone has to want to come back to life. Third, they have to regularly receive large amounts of star energy from an outside source, or they'll die again.
After all, it's not like the body actually comes back to life. It's actually more like we're possessing our own dead bodies. While we're doing that, we're actually using our star energy to maintain the body. While we can grow, it's more like we're using out magic to imitate life than actually being alive. Because of that, we don't need to eat or drink or anything, and we're almost unkillable as long as we have star energy. We could regenerate from almost any wound as long as we had star energy, and even if someone were to shoot me in the head, it wouldn't actually do much more than hurt a lot. But it also means our senses tend to get messed up: Generally, a Stillblood loses one sense, and has another sense enhanced and mixed with their ability to sense star energy. For me, I lost my sense of taste, but my sense of smell was enhanced, and I could smell the elements.
Of course, I didn't get revived for free. Only the Gracia church could perform the ritual to keep giving us star energy, and because of that, when we agreed to become Stillbloods, we also agreed to be the church's enforcers, making sure that Heretics that would abuse the Dusk element are... taken care of.
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so you know a lot about possession already!
that sounds really tough though
is that why you don't like being touched?
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Still, it doesn't change the fact that before I wound up getting this new body, I wasn't exactly all that different from the Monsters here.
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[What... does she mean exactly... How does she word this...]
I may not have eaten people, but I've killed people as part of my job. Sometimes they would beg for their lives and say that they haven't done anything, and I would kill them anyways. And even if it's true that I didn't have a choice...
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do you enjoy killing them?
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But... That doesn't really change the fact that I've killed people.
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that's one of the last things he told me before i died
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